And here we are again.

2020. I really have no words for this year. Life altering. Shake up. Reset of purpose and priorities. Reminding humans we really are all the same and all one at the end of the day. And 2020 is just the beginning. Many of the things arising were already rolling bubbles just before the boiling over.

I have no intentions of talking politics or about all the things talked about in the news. It's exhausting just reading about it and dealing with my own thoughts, feelings, emotions of everything as it comes up. I don't feel like exhausting myself more talking about it. Unless i'm having a day and truly just need to air my personal closet on it. I will try my best to keep the blog to basics. 

I am an HSP (highly sensitive person) and Empathic so the state of the world and all the astrological things have really been doing a doozy on me. I've been trying my best to find new ways of navigating in life. One big factor that has had to go for me is Coffee. I've been trying hard to accept this in life but it's one of those addictions i keep coming back to. My nervous system and psychic side really go haywire due to the coffee bean alone (decaf or regular doesn't matter). So for now i've been making the adjustment to only drinking it on the weekends to still get that craving taking care of. The next thing to go is social media. Since my awakening that one has always been a doozy for me. It's exhausting keeping up with my own life let alone getting addicted to watching everyone else's life, thoughts, news, etc. It's hard to stick to your own lane these days if you find it hard to disconnect from social media. 

I've come back to blogging because blogging is where I started way back in 2007 before Facebook converted beyond just college students. Once It did convert  and I joined it was a slow slippery slope. The slope got more slippery when we moved back to the US from Germany in 2012 and finally caved into the Smart Phone world. I've been debating cutting my dependency on smart phones and converting back to a flip phone but that will take some time haha! Do they even make/sell flip phones?? 

So i'm slowing down. Way down. At least continually attempting to restart the slow down. I have always preferred the slower paced life but once we moved back to America from Germany life just seemed to get faster and faster and filled with more useless time wasters. And I haven't fully been able to get back to the pace of life prior to all that. I will keep striving for that balance. 

I've realized in these crazy uncertain times that it's imperative for me to stick to a Gratitude journal. There is so much fear, uncertainty and chaos that it's easy to slip into fear/lack mode. Being able to remind oneself of all the things that ARE ok and that we DO have to be grateful for in our life is so important. My friend gifted me this little bullet journal and I turned it into my Gratitude Journal. I do fall off the bandwagon and forget to log in it sometimes or I get sucked into the the fears of life and have a hard time pulling it out and even attempting to find the good things but I always come back to it eventually and feel so much better and see my external world shifting when I do find Gratitude and writing about it each day. 

In the world of my career I have picked back up in my levels of certification in Biodynamic Craniosacral Therapy. I've completed 3/5 so far and after the final class I begin the full certification process. This modality of work feels at home to me. I just need to get the confidence to begin really pursuing this path of bodywork more openly. I recently started reading this book recommended by our teacher. It's a great book so far. 

Another big step in my journey is to get the confidence in taking the MBLEx exam so I can become certified in other states. I am looking to migrate home next summer and Wisconsin requires the MBLEx to become licensed there. This isn't a deep study guide but it gives you the key pointers of what needs to be studied, what not to worry about and then a practice exam. I also just purchased a subscription to ABMP's MBLEx Exam Coach which is study material to prepare for this test. I'm going to make this work and Rock that test! 

That's it for tonight. I do not have a set schedule I intend to stick to for the blog posts. They will be purely on a whim and when I have thoughts that need to come out. 

Take care for tonight. And Remember, Find Gratitude but for even one thing in your day today.